"Even when the rainbow seems to pass right by me....I'm still finding Gold in the clouds....."

03 January 2015

So It Begins...........

So here it was...Saturday morning.  And rather than get up early to head to the gym, I slept in.  Again.

This must stop come tomorrow!!  Or Monday it will be doubly-difficult to get up with that 5:30 alarm and get back to the classroom of kindergartners!

Dave brought me coffee in bed.......what a husband!  And so we grabbed a breakfast of protein (oatmeal with blueberries and walnuts for me) and hit the gym by 9:45.  By 10:30 we were both done, ran a quick errand, and home to shower. I was thrilled that for the last 3 days, I've been able to walk, spin, or use a treadmill for my "move" goal. Maybe meeting these goals I've laid out won't be so difficult after all!!  If only I had known what was to come........  

Showers, lunch, a quick phone call with a friend with a prayer need, and then wham.....I messed up.

See, one of my goals for this new year is to NOT complain or nag about the housework so much.

But the sight of that family room coffee table laden down with laptop, smart phone, bills, popcorn bowl, remotes.....and general clutter...just did me in!  And off went my mouth. Because most of that stuff was my husband's clutter.

And I cringed inside.

So I went outside.  To breathe in.  To breathe out.  To grasp a hold of my God of second chances.

Because you know what??

None of us are gonna do life perfectly.  We aren't.  We can only strive to go forward and renew and re-do and re-make and re-purpose.

I watched the birds at the feeder for a bit and took down the rest of the outdoor Christmas lights.  Dave had left to go on a library errand so I did some cleaning ....more of the soul than the house..and asked God to forgive my temper and choice of words.

Words are powerful.  

And when Dave walked back into the house, I had to apologize because another goal is to represent Jesus well and to be an example to my family and why would I want to be so negative with this dear man who works hard to provide for us?

I'm so thankful for his mercy and grace. 

 And I'm so thankful for His mercy and grace.

And for the liberty to try again.


Simply Linda said...

Oh oh...guilty here too..My mouth gets me in trouble, at times too. I also hate to "eat crow", wink. Great post, thanks Faith. Blessings

Deb said...

Thanks for this great post. I have been thinking a lot about this too - I know I am sometimes too critical of my hubby and that needs to change. I love your New Year's Resolutions. We all need to just keep trying and ask God to forgive and change our hearts. Thanks again for the thoughtful post and Happy 2015 to you.

Susanne said...

I was a fail at one of my 2015 goals already too. Thank God for His grace so that we can ask forgiveness, brush ourselves off and keep going.

Melanie said...

I'm so glad that God doesn't expect us to "do it right" all the time. I'm thinking that progressing toward our goals is as important as reaching them. Have a blessed day.

Brenda said...

I hear ya loud and clear! I thank God every day for His faithfulness. I'd be a big mess without Him.

littlesunshineegirl said...

Indeed no one lives a perfect life. It's good to know God has helped you. Have a blessed day :)!