Craving the Savoring

It's been a challenging few days........personally........

dashing off devotions with out savoring the morsels there ..........because dashing off "to do" from the list that keeps on growing and growing and why do we need more under the tree and in the stockings and do we really need six different kinds of sugary sweetness rolled, balled, dipped and dotted? and what about the laundry, the shopping, the wrapping, the cooking, the driving to and fro, the cleaning, the "it must be perfect" Christmas??

I'm sitting here on a Monday evening..........after a full day at work with special needs 5 year olds, feeling like I have a special need for the Savior.........because after work, I cooked, and spot cleaned, and taxied the ballerina and bought groceries and picked up a gift (but God....it's for the needy  boy in the class!!), and unpacked, and made lunches, and did dishes and complained to husband, and coaxed daughter, and battled a sore throat with body aching and frazzled nerves plopped on the couch at 9 p.m. to write...............and here I am.  Trying to not dwell on the dust or the dough waiting to be rolled..........but rather to be still.............

Near the decorated tree with candles shining brightly in the windows and night so mild with dripping snow making puddles on shiny streets and tears gathering making puddles in my eyes because I'm craving time to just be.

and I'm craving that savoring........

that time spent still.

Eyes, ears, heart on the Savior.

Because He really is why we do this thing called Christmas.

And I don't want to be on this treadmill of the perfect Christmas round and round we go and where we stop no one will know.............

I want to sit.  And be still.  taking things moment by moment rather than flying fast to and fro.............

savoring the sounds of the music...........

spending time looking at my husband and listening, conversing, laughing, appreciating..........

cuddling with the ballerina and making plans for Christmas break instead of cajoling the child to clean and hurry up the homework...........

I want to prepare the house for our princess (she comes home in 2 days!!) but not at the expense of neglecting time with the King.......the King who came to earth........in human form....for us.........to redeem us..........

I want to savor the sermon I heard on Sunday...those wise words from Pastor...........the words that remind us that we needed a Redeemer.......because we are in bondage to sin............

and I don't want to be a slave to my to do lists any longer...........

but rather..........I want to sit.  and be still.  and know that He is God.

That is the perfect Christmas.  Jesus.  My heart tuned to His.

Craving Christ.  Savoring my Savior.

Help me manage my time, Lord.  Help me say No to stuff and Yes to You.

Savoring the simple things..........