I find it amusing that the last 3 mornings, during my devotional time before work, God has had me in Scriptures like the one above.
Reading words about His plans for my future.............
.........about women and how busy we are in today's culture and how busy is not always better............
....................about how there is a season for everything and not everything has to be completed in all the seasons all at the same time...and how there are no coincidences in life....just steps orchestrated by God, our guide on the journey.
I find it ironic that while God has impressed upon me to take a break from certain things, He wants me to build up other things.........
and there's a fear in that. That I won't succeed. That it will be a waste of time.
That no one will read my words. Or care.
my soul feels drawn to the One who re-arranges my life, my wants, my passions.
and I know He is drawing me closer to Him at the same time He draws me away from certain roles.
I'm stepping down as a small group leader for at least a year.
And in doing so, I'm going to be writing. Writing my story......my testimony.
finally listening to the voices from my past who encourage me to get the words down on paper.
Words that will hopefully encourage, teach, inspire, and heal.
Words that might be difficult to read as they are difficult to write.
Words that bring up memories both good and painful.
Words that point to the grace and mercy of God the Father. And words that point the way to the Cross where all the bad and all the good are laid down.
Words that show forgiveness and love.
Words that point the way to the Light because of the shadows.
Can I do this?
I don't know....on my own strength, I know I cannot. I will need to draw close to God for His strength in this project.
But it's time. It's a new season in my life.
I need to listen to that still, small Voice.
It's a new season.........a new time.........