"Even when the rainbow seems to pass right by me....I'm still finding Gold in the clouds....."

05 December 2012

How Can I...........

How can I write about five favorite blessings.........

........in a week that feels like a year.....

...........surrounded by so much loss, so much grief, so many tears with busy-ness thrown in and the mundane of home, work, ballet, concerts, dinners, shopping and when do I work out and when I do why does my back give out?

and how can I party tomorrow evening when my heart feels heavy and frosted like the frost I spy on the fallen, trodden maple leaves?

............God...where is the Peace of the season?

..........tragedy struck our community and the community in the next town north of us this past weekend.....

............girl and boy.......lives lost.....so young.....with promising college careers ahead and no high school graduation for them now..........

...........and a girl from our district lying in the hospital broken and bruised in body and heart.........

............and the boy from youth group and a different school having to say good bye to his girlfriend and face death so young..........

WHY, God??

school rivals last month and this month united they stand amidst this tragedy of an older young man with the drinking while driving.........

...........and he walked away............

.........and WHY, God??

and..........all this loss.............

........my dad alone, so lost and sad.........

and the sudden death of mom that still makes no sense........how does a healthy heart become struck dead?

WHY, God??

......and the friends with prodigal sons and promiscuous daughters and the abused not listened to and not believed and the leaders keeping eyes shut....WHY, GOD??


and the busy-ness I do to stop the heart from feeling, the mind from thinking.............and WHY, God?? 

 Why the past gripping when the present slipping into the future.........and the heart freezes in worship and the tears are like frost........


................and the questions, always Why??

i can only believe i  will have those answers one day........

.........and cling to the One who was born here,



and walked here and He suffered, and He died so we can Live when we die............



and there is Peace in that...........


5 comments:

Susanne said...

Oh, Faith! Big hugs and prayers to you and your community! Senseless loss is always the hardest to deal with. All we can do is hang onto the Lord and pour our hearts out to Him!

Susan said...

Faith, I have no answers. But I do have (virtual) hugs and will pray for you and your community.

Kristen said...

This has been a challenging year in my life and I have also found myself asking God "why?" at times. I won't pretend to know the answers either. In an ideal world there would be no suffering, pain, divorce, disease, addiction or death. When tragedies such as these occur, I am reminded that we live in a fallen world full of broken people. Every day I make it a practice to count my blessings and I try to take nothing for granted. It helps me when I focus on the good things that exist in my life and in the world around me. It restores my hope. And one day we will know the joy of experiencing that ideal place.

Barbara H. said...

I'm so sorry for all these things. I do struggle with why some things happen and I don't have all the answers. We live in such a broken world. I pray God's grace and comfort for you and all involved.

Annette {This Simple Home} said...

Those horribly difficult why's have no earthly answers. Hugs and prayers for you, Faith!