"Even when the rainbow seems to pass right by me....I'm still finding Gold in the clouds....."

07 March 2009

Running

I love the image of wild horses running.

When my oldest was 8 years old, she began horse riding lessons. It was about a year before she was allowed to canter, which, to an 8 year old on a massive horse, is like galloping. I loved watching her and the horse......it seemed like such freedom.
About 2 years ago, I was dealing with something (an emotional/soul issue) that had been plaguing me for a long time. Long as in years. Something I actually had gone to counseling for and it had been resolved but the aftereffects were still lingering. Hard to explain here but.....during that time of re-visiting some things left undone (just about 2 years ago this month), the words to a song jumped from my pen onto paper and from there onto my piano. This was definitely a "God thing" as I am no composer although many songs have been written like that for me since the early '90s. Songs flow out of my heart, usually after a time of reflection or meditation or some type of trial. It is just one way I get release.
This song deals with running. Something I am quite good at. I tend to "run" emotionally speaking, when faced with something unpleasant or an issue I need to deal with. Not so much now....but....it is still my first reaction. I used to think it brought freedom....like the feeling of being on a wild horse. But the real freedom doesn't come from running away from the issue....the freedom comes from running towards it and dealing with it and leaving it in God's Hands.

I performed this song at a women's meeting at my church just after writing it.
But the reason I am putting it here is because there is someone dear to me who is also running from something/someOne and she needs these words. I hope they minister to her the way they ministered to me. And if you are reading this and could use the reminder to run towards God rather than away from Him, then hopefully this will touch you, too!

Running

Running, running,
my soul's running
far away from You
Trying to outrun Your Love song
playing over me, through me

Your arms outstretched to reach
my heart strings, tangled web,
--a web of lies--
shattered trust,
shadows that don't flee.

Running, running,
my soul's running
fighting from within
believing lies that make the shadows,
--never trust again--

the Father's calling, but I am running
as angry tears fall
on the inside
I cannot hide

Pulling, pulling,
You are pulling
my soul into Your Arms
tangled heartstrings will come unraveled,
shadows flee away
When your Light shines and Your Lovesong
singing over me
--through me--
Truth is chasing me
When Your Light shines and Your Lovesong
singing over me
--through me--
Truth will set me free

c. faith mt 1/07

6 comments:

C said...

from Candace:

beautiful lyrics, Faith! I'd love to hear you sing it sometime. :)
Blessings, C.

Susanne said...

Faith, thanks for sharing this. It was absolutely beautiful. I tend to want to run too, but then wonder why when it is all over and God has brought me through. I'm sure this post will minister to many!

tali said...

Hi Faith, I remember this song. I think you have shared it before. It applied to my life then and I can hear the truth in it still! It's great that you have this song to minister to you whenever you need it. Praise the LORD for knowing exactly what we need to bring us out of darkness and for being our greatest comforter.

Sandy said...

Wish I could hear you perform it!
I love what you said here "But the real freedom doesn't come from running away from the issue....the freedom comes from running towards it and dealing with it and leaving it in God's Hands."
AMEN!!! And what a great reminder!

e-Mom said...

Thanks for sharing your heart here, Faith. It's not always easy to do. :~D

Darlene said...

I tend to run from my emotions till they build up and I over flow with tears. This post touched my heart. thanks for sharing yours.
Blessings!!