His Way

Time.  It's so fleeting......I wake up almost every morning missing my oldest, that vibrant, pretty, petite 18 year old princess.....and I cannot believe she is away at college.....I feel like the time with her just went by so darn fast! and so I pray away the missing....I pray for her daily, that she would be in the Word, that she would trust Him for every decision, every circumstance, that she would know Him as friend not just Savior.........

and......

I watch my youngest, with the long, lean, muscled dancer's body, hair golden brown like wheat falling over her 12 year old face with the big, blue eyes....and I wonder....where does the time go?  

 Watching Claire (the 12 yr old) last evening mixing batter for pumpkin muffins(she had a baking project for Home/Career class) and seeing the glow in her eyes, and the spring to her step, reminded me of God's healing.  In His way..and in His time.

The Lord got us threw a tough time with her at her birth.  She had a cyst on an ovary that my doctor discovered at my first ultra-sound.  This is how we found out we were having another girl!  She had to have it removed at 10 week of age.  Yes, we prayed for physical healing.  God chose to heal her through the pediatric surgeon's hands, and gave Dave and I the patience, strength, and faith to get through it.  Placing my baby in the hands of a nurse to be whisked away for surgery was not easy.  I remember thinking "what if it's cancer?".....Praise the Lord it wasn't!  It was a benign cyst that the doctors said occurs in the womb to about 10% of females. Most of them disappear during the birthing process....Claire's did not.  In fact, it damaged her ovary and fallopian tube so they had to be removed.

Do I worry about her future?  Not at all......because of this Scripture:

"The Lord will wait, that He may be gracious to you;  and therefore He will be exalted, that He may have mercy on you.  For the Lord is a God of justice;  blessed are all those who wait for Him.  He will be very gracious to you at the sound of your cry;  when He hears it, He will answer you."  Isaiah 30:18 &19

God used a pediatric surgeon to bring healing to her body.  And he used that same surgeon to assure my husband and I, along with our pediatrician, that she can go on to have a baby......it might take her longer to conceive than the average female, but she will be able to have a baby.  And I thought about how I had such peace during that time.

I had some anxiety but  the overall feeling was peace. A trust in Christ.  Even if it had been cancerous, although I don't know exactly how I would feel if that had been the case, I would lean on my Lord to get me through.  He hears our cries!!

Our cries are our prayers!  Our groanings and moanings in the Spirit for our children.  

He chooses the time.  He chooses the place.  He chooses the time for our healings.

And He always answers us.  It might not be in our time. Or in the place we imagined.  Or even a complete healing like we desire and long for...and even pray for. His ways are mysterious.

But they are always in His time........and in His way.......

Claire baking muffins 18 Sept.

please note: I didn't plan on posting this today...I felt the nudge of the Spirit to do this.....I hope this brings encouragement or faith to someone in need today......