"Even when the rainbow seems to pass right by me....I'm still finding Gold in the clouds....."

03 March 2015

Towards Him


staring out the late night window all streaked with sleet and ice and the wind howling around the corners of the house and my soul, mind, heart so weary..............

and my mind remembers this Scripture...........these words from our Redeemer.........



it was a busy day, it's a busy week and it's going to be a busy month........

.............the special students are struggling with the cabin fever of being cooped up in the classroom and the reading and learning of the words and numbers and school rules and the behaviors that get in the way of their learning and their two steps forward and three steps back and it's still winter and it makes me weary to keep repeating over and over "Come". "Sit" "look and listen" "do your work" "pay attention" and how those words ring true in my own ears from my own Teacher...................

As I work with these precious 5 year olds who struggle so to learn and remember and practice, I am reminded of my own struggles to let go of my wants and desires and busyness and just rest in Him............to give Him the students, my family, my small group, my friends..........

Listening to the orchestra play tonight and seeing our youngest daughter....a sophomore in high school...already.......and realizing only 2 more years with her at home.......and knowing the struggle to ponder her future, her struggle to know what to major in at college, the work of looking at colleges, and applications, and essays and the honors program and ballet and violin and chores and homework and driving lessons and.....

 help, I wanna get off this wheel of perpetual motion!

And my own wondering of "are we pushing our daughters too much to do??" Do they feel obligated to get the high grades, join clubs, take instruments, find jobs, read the Word, go to youth group, attend church??  Or do they want to do these things and how does a parent really know??

We just do.  We know.  They verbalize their wants. Their needs. From a young age and we help and mold and train and guide.

And sometimes it's thrilling and most of the time it's mundane and sometimes it's downright weary-ing.

But....in those times..these late night and laundry-is-still-in-the-washer and the ballerina is still not in the shower............it's in those times that He says to me


Come.......lay all these burdens down at my feet.....let Me take them.........find rest for your soul.......

it's then that I quiet my soul and whisper "thank you, God"  How I thank Him for allowing me to be a special educator, to be a wife, to be a mother, to be a friend and neighbor and small group leader...to be part of a vibrant church community............and yes, it's a busy season of life with an active teen and a full time job and an active almost-done-with-college daughter and a husband who is recuperating from his heart attack and busy and traveling.......and this life He gives.........

remembering to slow down, and lean in to Him and let Him carry these burdens so my soul can find rest..............

it's towards Him I run.........






3 comments:

Melanie said...

Beautiful, Faith. When so much is going on, it's wonderful that to know that we have a Savior to lean on. I think it's wonderful that you teach special children. It must be a very rewarding experience. Have a blessed day.

Susanne said...

Great post! We took a seriously hard look at everything that was on our plates a few years ago and had to make some hard and unpopular decisions. But we've not looked back. It's given us some more breathing room and time to just be still and enjoy God's presence in our lives instead of always running from one thing to another. I think in the busyness sometimes we forget where our actual rest and refreshing come from and that we actually have to press pause on the busyness and "Come unto Him".

littlesunshineegirl said...

This is so true :)

Sometimes we get too overwhelmed by the things we have to do, and that is when we remember that we could actually run to God. I believe that it is one of God's ways of reminding us that we need to rely on Him. Yet, it is still important to seek Him always :)

May God bless you!