It's that time again......
.....the ballerina girl is loading up her car trunk with suitcases and boxes and bags........
........the husband's SUV will be full tomorrow a.m. with all the big stuff a college girl needs for life in a dorm.....
......and me? Once again, I'm feeling anxious even though this is one of God's commands:
....deep down I'm excited for her....her second year at a top notch New England university.....
....academically challenging enough to keep her studying and holding on to that academic scholarship, but social enough to be involved in some really good organizations, volunteer work, and an awesome work study job.
and yet.......
.........the first year away with her own car......
.........driving up from the south shore area of Boston in morning rush hour traffic.....with us not far behind yet not in control of our girl....who is still our baby....and so fiercely independent but still so much more learning of life lessons to accomplish.....
When does a mother NOT worry?
Deep down in my heart I know the Biblical truth of the above Scripture....
....I know that I will have peace that only God Himself can bring yet at the same time I will be praying without ceasing on that drive Thursday morning.
The practical side of my brain is telling me that tomorrow's drive from our home in NYS to the south shore of MA, will not be too bad. She's driven it before and she is a good driver. However, this mama tends to be concerned about the other drivers on that Mass Pike....those bustling, busy, too-fast vehicles in such a hurry to just go go go......
the deep place in my heart knows she can handle the drive because her God is with her and He will watch over her and I thank Him in advance for this....
.......and yet......
there's that underlying thought of "How did it get to be this time already?"
How is it that our youngest gal is heading off for another year of college in her own car and making decisions that no longer really include us?
How come no one prepares us for this???!!!
And still....i hear in that still small Voice...
"be anxious for nothing but in all things give thanks and make your requests known...."
so it's time....it's time to cover my dancer girl with prayer for safe travels...for both cars to have no incidents...for smooth travels....for pressing in to Him...
it's time to say "see you in October and good luck with your work and have fun with your friends" ....
and it's time to let go....
......once again.....
3 comments:
Awww...letting go...that's the hard part. Reading your post brought back so many memories of when our first born (daughter) went off. When she graduated college the college hired her to run their library and provided her living quarters. Oh my...truly out and on her own. I understand, Faith...I truly do.
And I can't believe that Ballerina Girl is already in her second year of college! Where has the time gone? I don't know if you remember me or not but several years ago now I participated in FFF, but my blog then was called Joyful in His Presence. I had a year long break due to family needs and when I came back to blogging I've chosen the title Forgiven. So, I remember when this college girl of yours was much younger. Happy to hear she is still that great achiever when it comes to whatever she tries to do! Hope all is well with your older daughter as well.
Have a great remainder to your week. I will be praying for you...especially when it comes to saying, "See you in October."
Such a hard transition - rejoicing for them yet anxious over all the unknowns and possibilities. Praying for God's peace and for His watch-care over your daughter.
I hear ya. Went through it with all my kids and by God's grace I survived! I still worry when they are on the road even while I still know that God has them in His hands. I had to do it when my "baby" went to Italy with a friend this summer. I think we really feel that struggle all our lives as parents. It's a continual laying down of the anxiety at God's feet, which in turn draws us closer to Him. Praying that Claire experiences everything God has for her this year and that she'll have another great year.
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